Constant Reveries
Friday, September 29, 2006
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Seriously Trippy Song: High Hopes - Floyd
Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were youngIn a world of magnets and miracles
Our thoughts strayed constantly and without boundary
The ringing of the division bell had begun
Along the Long Road and on down the Causeway
Do they still meet there by the Cut
There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps
Running before time took our dreams away
Leaving the myriad small creatures trying to tie us to the ground
To a life consumed by slow decay
The grass was greener
The light was brighter
With friends surrounded
The night of wonder
Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide
At a higher altitude with flag unfurled
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed of world
Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we've been so many times
The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river
Forever and ever
Monday, September 11, 2006
I miss
I miss eating water melon from the cart on the roadside with juice dripping down my hands and feeling all sticky and gross..instead of worrying about flies and disease.
I miss eating all the ice lollies we could get at the store every single day instead of worrying about cellulite
I miss getting all excited at the thought of going for a party cos there were boys coming along instead of thinking all men are dogs
I miss talking on the phone all night before a really big exam instead of being so tired i just drop dead
I miss how incredibly funny it was seeing my friends drunk for the first time without realizing how incredibly stupid I sounded myself instead of getting drunk and talking about what dead end futures we have.
I miss worrying about how to con my mom into giving me a 100 bucks instead of worrying how to make my next credit card payment.
I miss the thrill of that first kiss, the flirting, the attention instead of thinking he’s gonna hurt me, cheat on me, give me some disease.
I miss meeting a guy and just enjoying being with him instead of having to size him up to see if he would be a good father to my children.
I miss crying over my ex boyfriend and the good times we had instead of thinking ‘oh well’
I miss how I could talk for hours about nothing and everything with my friends, like we'd live forever instead of about how our time is up
I miss how we had all the answers and all we needed was the experience instead of been there done that and sold out
I miss waking up in the morning and thinking ‘yuck’ school today but then smiling cos that also meant playing red rover 10 times over at break time. I miss waking up in the morning and thinking ‘yuck’ college today but then smiling cos that also meant seeing that oh so cute guy in the next class. I miss waking up in the morning and…smiling
I miss just doing stuff....cos....just because………instead of having to complete the end of that sentence all the time and end up not doing anything.
But the funny thing is…more than anything..what I really miss is not the way things used be..what I miss most is… me.


